Debt used to feel like background noise in my life—always there, quietly stressful, and impossible to ignore. At my peak, I was juggling 15 different credit accounts with a total of £15,486 owed. Credit cards, store cards, buy-now-pay-later, overdrafts—you name it, I probably had it. For a long time, I didn’t really have a plan….
Parties
So I’ve been to very few parties/events as an adult. I always say I like my own time/space but then feel so lonely especially at certain times of the year. I’ve never been to a Halloween or Christmas party other than as a kid, I’ve been to barely any birthday parties – mums 70th, dads…
Battling everyday
Ever had those moments where you don’t know what to think. I’m having one right now. On the surface, when people see me out, they wouldn’t think anything was wrong, but when I’m alone at home, I cry often, I wonder will I ever have friends and not just drinking pals or acquaintances. I’m about…
Where am I going….
The 18th December will be two years since I joined the NMC register and got my pin. Two years since I qualified and I haven’t learnt anything clinical in that time at all. November 2020 – December 2020Discharge Lounge – Here due to my NQN role not existing due to Covid. Few patients due to…
I’m really struggling right now
I haven’t had the best of times these past few years since qualifying as a nurse December 2020. I was redeployed twice within the first month and subsequently moved on to work in a nursing home for a year. I left there to going work at a hospice and that’s where I hit rock bottom….
Quitting my journey – I failed yet again
I think it’s getting to the point that I should just give up or at least live right next door to a gym. The closest one to me is a 5 min walk away but it so basic it’s bad. I ended up stopping going to Elevate Fitness. The cost and travel there wasn’t for…
Starting my journey – again!
So, I am on my fitness journey once again. I must have done this multiple times before and failed. This time I have a plan and I am to stick to it. I have been debating which gym I was going to join. I liked my previous PT gym but the price was just too…
Life at 40
So I turned 40 last Sunday, this past year has been bluh and I am determined to make changes going forward. My life consists of working the night shift, being in a pub, or sitting on my bed watching youtube working on 1 of my 2 degrees. Yep I have that exciting of a life….
Life update – nursing
So what has been happening since the last update Job So I left uni with a job on a private unit with the local NHS hospital. This unit had been closed since January 2020 and wasn’t open, at least as a private unit, by the time I was due to start. Due to this, I…
Nursing degree update
So it’s been a while since I updated anything on here and been even longer since I wrote anything about my nurse training. I got so caught up in the stress of a paid placement and finishing assignments that I neglected this little place of mine on the internet. I am now back and a…
